Thursday, August 12, 2010

project: making my own Dreads :D

Dreads are so much harder to make, than I thought.. So this project isn't going as planned. I wanted to have finished them by now, but I'm only in the beginning! Well, it's not like I work at them every day... :p When I finished one pack of 613platinum blond, I realized I didn't had to make them so long... So I had just ruined one pack of kanekalon.. great. I managed to save a dread or two, which means that I was able to make one long one into two shorter ones. Maybe I can do that to some more of the long ones. We'll see. So now I'm making them a lot shorter that what I originally started off.

Personally I prefer them long. BUT it takes so much time to make them, and many many many packs of synthetic hair. And because I have to buy that online, it costs!!! (actually it's the shippment that costs). So I can't keep buying one pack after another and still have nothing :/
So originally I wanted a nice lenght, like this:

But now, since I saw that I have to buy SO many packs of synthetic hair, and I can't afford that, I thought of something like this:

( I do not own these images, they are downloaded from the internet)

The colours I've chosen are 613platinum blonde (as the base colour), lilac and baby blue (which looks more like aqua-skyblue). I think they are going to be great even if they're shorter than what I wanted.

Friday, August 6, 2010

An evening's thoughts and melancholy

These past two months I had much time to think about many things and people in my life.
This past year, it felt like life was living itself rapidly. So many things changed. I changed a lot as a person, and I think I like it. I got rid of people that were actually bringing out the worst of me, and that was a big and hard decision, but I made it. An I was and am happy about it. But you see, "evil" things don't always stay away :P so they continued to bother me, and I was so hypnotised by my new and happy life that I didn't delt with them properly. Of course that came back to bite me in the ass... Anyway, the bottom line of this is that I recently found out accidentally that some important things were kept from me, (lying hypocrite sack of shit). Thankfully I did continue to stand by my old decision and never changed it. Thank god!!! ( I don't believe in him, but it's a figure of speech)... But I can't help but wonder, what would have happened if I had changed my mind about them, I would still be living among lies and deceit.
I am so grateful that I finally saw through some people and I found the strength to leave them and go on with my life. Because as it's now proven, they were full of it, and so, I was right not to believe anything!

No matter how glad I am about the fact that I was right, (even at the very end), I can't stop being sad. I keep thinking that since people who meant so much to me, lied so easily, tryed to maintain a masquerade, (which was falling apart since I could see through it), then WHAT is actually true in life??? Who is not going to lie to me? If it was so easy to fool me and do what ever they wanted behind my back, then why won't any one else do the same to me???

I know it's not right to think like that, since people are different and just because there are many assholes out there doesn't mean that everybody is an asshole. But I can't think positive right now, I'm in a dark place :(